A Long Hiatus

It's been a long time since I've posted anything to my blog. I've had so many things to deal with in the past year that it's a miracle that I'm here now to even write anything. I know most of what I am going to say in this entry has very little to do with what I normally write about but I feel the need to get this out anyway. Please excuse me if it gets too long. You'll have to use your imagination and probably a lot of visualization too to kind of understand this.

Regardless of who you are, you probably have something stressful going on in your life right now. It may be physical, emotional, or spiritual but I am sure there is something. It's basically your own personal hell. Sure you may know people whose situation is a lot worse than yours, but still your own personal hell is specific to you. It's your worst nightmare coming to reality. I was so bad at one point I recall myself being face down on the floor completely naked praying to God for a little help. My prayers went unanswered. As a matter of fact my situation got worse. Anytime someone said they were going to pray for me everything got worse. Use your imagination here with me. Imagine walking along with your best friend in the entire world. All of a sudden you look at your friend and they snarl at you and push you into the deepest darkest pit. On the way down you see the look of utter disgust on your companion's face. The fall seems like it lasts forever. When you finally hit the bottom you are hurt and hurt bad. You are dazed and confused and slowly maneuver your wounded body to the standing position. You think your vision is blurry, but it's so dark you actually can't see a thing. There are small flashes of light here and there but you have no clue what they are so you ignore them and try to figure out why you got pushed down there and second how in the hell you are going to get yourself out. As you stand there quietly you begin to hear voices. You realize that you are not alone and that there are others in the pit with you. Some have been pushed in by people, some have fallen by themselves, and some just woke up and found themselves there. No matter why they are there you decide you are getting out and taking everyone with you out of this pit. Some people have given up and decide they are just going to stay there and wait for someone to get them out, and some decide they are with you on trying to get out on their own. So, you have different ideas on how to get out and they all end like this. Fail, FAil, FAIl, FAIL, FAILL, FAILLL!!! After all the fails, most people give up on you and stop believing in you. Hell, even you stop believing that you are going to make it out. Your heart fills with sadness as tears stream down your face. You are not even sure what is causing the tears. Is it because your are stuck in this pit or that you got pushed in there by someone you cared the world for?

After throwing your own personal pity party and wiping away the tears you realize that the tears cleared your vision. The flashes of light you were seeing earlier were not just flashes of light. They were actually ropes. Ropes from friends who were trying to help get you out. Your vision was blurry because of a little thing called "Pride". All of a sudden you hear a little voice that tells you that you can make it out if you climb with everything you have. Your climb is tough but you can't give up. You stumble a little, slip a little, and even some of the people who are in the pit try to drag you back down in there but you can't give up. The more you climb the more the voice of positivity gets louder in your ear. To cut the rest of this little tale short I can tell you that I am not out of the pit. The good news is I can see the light at the top and I can see the faces of the people with the ropes that have been there the whole time trying to get me out. I have to say thank you to them for all their support and what they have done to keep me going strong. They've taught me some things about life. Some you'll understand and some you won't, and some will be just an inside thing that only they and I will understand.


LESSONS FROM FRIENDS
1. Even in this world full of aliens there is at least 1 human left. (inside thing)
2. It's ok to be a little crazy as long as you make it through the day and don't harm anyone.. Haha (inside thing)
3. If you know someone that you are friends with that is in need of help, help them. Regardless of how proud they are you help them anyway. Even if it's shoving a bag of food at them when they get ready to leave your house, or telling them to shut the hell up when they say something negative.
4. Never let someone with a lot of potential down talk themselves. Always try to lift them and let them know that you believe in them, even if no one else does.
5. Support your friend any way you can in a time of need and help them talk through the issue. You'll be surprised at what good some conversation might do. You never know, you may end up getting your kitchen painted in the process ;-) (inside thing)
6. A true friend will be there through ups and downs and won't leave your side until everything is better.
7. Even if your prayers don't get answered, try to keep some form of spirituality.

8. Last but not least an important lesson from my dog. (see image below)

My long hiatus from this blog is over. Spending time in this pit has drained me. I've struggled a lot but hopefully I'm a better man for it.

Until next time you guys take care.